241007--241008

**11:25 PM KST**  
hi  
*\*(voice memo) 🗣️:”hi\~”*  
why is it so cold today  
it feels like it’ll get even colder  
brrrrrr  
this winter  
is it supposed to be the coldest ever?  
whoa  
that’s scary  
yeah, i have to go to bed early though  
before i sleep  
//  
last winter  
i have a lot of memories from Australia  
since i spent summer Christmas there  
i wonder what i’ll do for my birthday this year  
i like working on my birthday  
kind of a quirky preference? ㅋㅋㅋㅋ  
last year, i was lucky not to have any schedules on my birthday, so i went to a birthday cafe and a photo booth  
i was lucky  
if i have a schedule on my birthday  
ㅋㅋㅋㅋ i get more birthday wishes  
maybe because i’ve been used to it since i was little  
and i can make my birthday more memorable for others  
how can a birthday be boring?  
of course, it depends on the person, but  
at least you can celebrate yourself for being born that day, right  
and be thankful to your parents for giving birth to you\~\~\~\~\~  
this isn’t an E vs. I thing..  
🤔  
birthdays are days to be celebrated  
even if i can’t remember all the details, at this moment..  
oh, this person  
was born on this day  
you can know that  
🌊 “kim chaeyeon: the chatroom is all about numbers right now ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ”  
ㅋㅋㅋㅋ that’s nice  
thanks for being born, everyone\~\~\~\~\~\~  
thank you for coming to me  
🩷  
is today heartwarming  
was there ever a day that wasn’t  
🫳🏻🫳🏻🫳🏻  
there are moments  
when i feel like my world is expanding  
ah, this is love  
for example, in daily life,  
there was a female manager i liked back then  
we got so close that when we said goodbye, i even called her unnie  
at that time  
i listened to music  
very selectively  
except for Korean songs  
for pop songs  
mostly R\&B  
i’m saying i only listened to Lauv’s songs  
just mellow stuff  
but that unnie  
had a wide spectrum of music  
she listened to all kinds of genres  
on her way home from work, she always connected her phone to bluetooth to listen to music in the car  
also on the way to work ㅋㅋ  
music always accompanied her commute  
we’d take turns  
like “i want to play something today\!”  
so i’d connect my phone and play something  
but sometimes, listening to the songs she played, without thinking, i’d be like, wow, what’s the title of this?  
whose song is this?  
i asked that a lot  
and gradually  
i started listening to a wider variety of music  
even jazz\!\!  
i never used to listen to jazz, but  
i got into jazz  
jazz tv  
anyway  
i even listened to rock for a while  
ㅋㅋㅋㅋ  
foreign hip hop or  
just stuff like that..  
i found myself searching for genres i thought I’d never listen to again..  
it was kind of strange  
the song that got me into jazz  
was  
Tom Misch \- Movie  
when i first heard it  
hmm\~\~ it’s nice, but it’s not really my style  
but a few months later  
i got hooked, and now i’ve listened to other tracks from the album too ㅋㅋㅋ  
“movie is so goodㅠ..”  
right\!\! it’s so goodㅠㅠㅠㅠ  
thank you for agreeing with me  
for trying to like what i like  
for trying to like it together  
thank you  
i just turned it on too, on my AirPods ㅋㅋ  
trying to like it together  
and liking it is  
….love  
the girl who’s always debating about love  
ㅋㅋ  
but you have to express it for others to know  
right?  
how would anyone know if you don’t say it  
expecting them to know is  
selfish, maybe  
but i understand  
because you love them so much  
you’re more careful about it..  
hold on \#iloveyou  
“today, chaeyeon’s logic is flawless”  
ㅋㅋㅋ I’m not a super logical person, but  
it’s not that i am, i just  
like logical people……  
I want them around  
if i had to compare to an S  
hmm…  
sohyun oppa  
sohyun unnie just makes me laugh when i’m with her  
but her logic is convincing….  
it’s just like that, i guess  
sohyun unnie  
that picture on X today  
the second drawing  
who do you think drew it ㅋㅋ  
it’s me  
it’s me \#kimchaeyeon  
i drew it on the atom board without even writing a name  
just drew sohyun unnie  
other people were drawing next to it  
ㅋㅋ i didn’t write my name  
i just thought of it like “figure it out, lol”  
and i drew the final touch  
i drew her face and hair  
and wrote in the middle of her face  
\#parksohyun’shair  
like a name tag  
when she went to work, she took a picture of it and posted it in the group chat  
she took a picture of what i drew and posted it saying  
“who drew this ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ”  
and i didn’t reply  
on purpose ㅋㅋ  
(kekeke it’s me)  
and then, when the picture got posted today  
i messaged her  
“unnie, that drawing  
it’s me”  
what did she reply?  
“ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ  
kim chaeyeon’s doing”  
sohyun unnie is a cute person…  
we always call her handsome, but  
being handsome is possible because she’s also pretty  
her personality is cute..  
yeah yeah  
jiwoo is a different story  
jiwoo feels like a younger one  
but jiwoo doesn’t feel like an oppa, right  
why is jiwoo younger than me  
i like unnie more..  
ㅠ  
yeah, who will take care of the younger ones  
i have to  
if jiwoo were two years older than me  
i’d be more playful with her  
jiwoo unnie has such a handsome nose ㅎㅎ  
ugh  
oh sorry  
so cringe  
ugh..  
really sorry  
*🗣️: ”uuweg”*  
*🗣️: ”just kidding”*  
gong yubin unnie?  
wow.. the worst  
i’m just grateful i was born two months before her  
thank you  
thank you, parents  
for letting me see the light of the world earlier than gong yubin  
..sigh  
today, a member told me  
“kim chaeyeon, you’ve been hanging out with gong yubin and jeong hayeon too much  
you’ve gotten a little childish”  
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ  
ah;;;; i guess i need to distance myself;;;;;  
but positively,  
it means i’ve become younger^^?  
what’s wrong with yubin and hayeon..  
they’re lovely kids….  
i won’t tell you who said it ㅋㅋ but when someone asked,  
“is it them?”  
the name that came out  
was wrong  
everyone’s wrong  
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ  
everyone’s wrong  
nope, not telling you  
stay curious forever  
ㅋ  
be conan forever  
and then a twist  
it was sullin  
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ  
wouldn’t it be  
i don’t know  
imagination is free  
but you’re all wrong  
“chaeyeon, you’re good at taking care of sullin”  
right, sullin is  
so pretty\~\~\~\~  
she has such a pretty vibe

“chaeyeon and sullin are similar, maybe because they’re both so pretty”

oh  
is that a compliment  
thank you  
“imagine yeonji saying, ‘kim chaeyeon, you’ve been hanging out with gong yubin and jeong hayeon too much\~’”  
ah  
just imagining it  
is funny  
if she said that to my face  
ㅋㅋ i wouldn’t be able to hold in my laughter  
right.. i need to sleep  
this is fun..  
ㅠ  
what should i doㅠ  
🌊 “i’m going to bed first, goodnight”  
wow this feels like  
“hey, let’s break up. yeah, i dumped you. no, you didn’t dump me, i dumped you, okay?”  
it feels like that  
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ  
i know this one  
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ  
\*voice memo  
*🗣️:”i dumped you first”*  
*🗣️: “i was dumped, right.”*  
*🗣️: “you know this, right?”*  
beating them to the punch  
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ so funny  
“hey, i’m going to sleep first?ㅋㅋ hey, i’ll hit REM sleep before you ㅋㅋ?”  
*\*(voice memo x3)*  
*🗣️: "they asked me to speak formally, so yes, i’ll speak formally. but if i did it in yeonji’s version, it’d be funny. yeonji would say:  ‘unnie, i’ll buy it first? i’ll sleep first.’ (in formal tone)*  
*🗣️:  everyone would all laugh, right?”*   
*🗣️: ‘please find me. i’m begging you.’ (WAV)*  
*🗣️: “uhm, who are you?”*  
*🗣️: “sorry."*  
break up?  
who are you?  
*\*(voice memo x3)*  
*🗣️: "break up?"*  
*🗣️: "who are you? huh, you're so annoying. you were dating me?"*  
*🗣️: "mm\!"*  
*🗣️: "instead of saying 'let's date,' please say 'let's take care of each other.'"*  
*🗣️: "let's take care of each other."*  
🌊” chaeyeon: let’s break up..

yeonji: break up. I said it first. I broke up with you. I’ll tell everyone I dumped you.”  
ah  
this brat  
\*(bunch of voice memos)  
*🗣️: "’chaeyeon, you seem like such a baby.’(WAV)"*  
*🗣️: "right, i am a baby. it’s just that we have a lot of younger friends on our team”*  
*🗣️: “but i’m still a baby too.”*  
*🗣️: (laughing)*  
*🗣️: “i’m sorry.”*  
*🗣️: “oh, but you know, i don’t want to be treated like a baby, but i also don’t want to be treated like a kid either.”*  
*🗣️: “i want to show that i’ve grown up, but at the same time, i don’t want to be treated like an adult. i don’t know if this is just me being weird. sorry. i’m sorry"*

*🗣️: "’chaeyeon-ah, even after the 3rd generation, you're still holding onto the title of the youngest debut. you’re still the youngest.’ (WAV)"*  
*🗣️: "but i have a question. you know how there’s the 3rd generation, 4th generation, and 5th generation, right? am i part of the 3rd generation?"*  
*🗣️: "i don’t think i’m 3rd generation."*  
*🗣️: "oh, they said if you debuted in 2017, you’re considered 3rd generation. but i’m not sure. i don’t really know how they define it either. they’re telling me that 3rd generation idols are from 2012 to 2017\. but i debuted in late november 2017, so i feel like i should be part of the 4th generation. but since i’m right on the line, let’s just say i’m 3rd generation."*  
*🗣️: "but when they say 2017 is the cutoff, doesn’t that make my november 2017 debut kind of awkward?"*  
*🗣️: "but tripleS is considered 4th generation since 2017 is the cutoff."*  
*🗣️: "but i’m curious, you know how we have 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th, and 5th generations, right? will there be like a 50th or 51st generation in the future? will i still be alive by then?"*  
why are you all laughing  
I’m serious  
🌊 “we won’t exist anymore anyway”  
*Hey*  
nonsense forbidden  
don’t get mad  
but nothing lasts forever..  
since that’s such an obvious fact  
i won’t bother reminding you of it again  
since nothing lasts forever, that’s why this moment is precious  
time’s too valuable to waste  
💕  
the little chaeyeon who used to get excited watching pororo trailers  
now feels nothing when it comes to pororo  
let me tell you something cute before i sleep  
when i was really young  
i was watching TV  
it wasn’t pororo time but pororo suddenly came on  
the story was rushing through quickly and i was like, huh? it’s not the time for pororo to air..  
but in the top-right corner  
it said “trailer”  
at that time, i didn’t know what “trailer” meant  
i ran to my mom  
“mom, it’s not pororo time but pororo is playing\! but it says trailer. what does that mean?”  
apparently, that’s what i said to her  
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ  
the sad part is, i don’t really remember asking my mom or being confused by the trailer on TV  
but my mom still remembers it  
so when we talk about old memories  
that story always comes up  
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ  
so now\!\!  
i’ve told y/n everything  
so if i forget it again  
please remind me, okay?  
it’s one of my core memories  
ㅎㅎ  
it’s now shared ㅎㅎ  
thank youuu❤️  
btw, using honorifics is so comfortable, i’ll keep using it  
y/n can do whatever they want  
since you’re someone i cherish  
i don’t really know what it means to feel flustered but  
i love you too..  
*🗣️:”i love you”*  
*🗣️:”i will really go now. bye\~”*