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y/n, you up?    
i can't sleep, just...    
ㅎㅎ    
y/n, what are you doing instead of sleeping    
ㅎㅎ wanna hang out with me for a bit before bed?    
i can't seem to sleep tonight    
i just washed my hands  
and i don't know if it's because of the new bathroom slippers,    
but for some reason,    
the way they feel under my feet is so different    
and while washing my hands, i thought,    
i’m so used to the feel of my old slippers whenever i go to the bathroom,    
the way they touch the soles of my feet ㅋㅋ    
but since these are new, it feels awkward  
it’s just because they’re new, but eventually,    
this feeling will become familiar too    
as i was lathering up the soap and rinsing off,    
i thought, everything becomes familiar with time    
a lot of people struggle with change    
it’d be a lie to say i don’t get stressed about it either    
but i swear, i wasn’t trying to get all serious out of nowhere ㅋㅋ    
i was just building up to this    
every change is an opportunity for growth,    
and while that might be stressful,    
eventually, everything will be okay    
i saw a funny post earlier, hold on, i'll copy-paste it    
💌 omg, i’ve never seen someone put a space after “해” before, did you run this through a grammar checker?    
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ    
i'm a korean language master    
i've been meticulous about spelling and spacing since i was little    
but even i don’t know everything    
so whenever i’m unsure,    
i look it up    
and then it becomes mine 😎    
actually, naegeo *(내거)* and naekko *(내꺼)*    
doesn’t naekko roll off the tongue better?    
but technically, it's supposed to be nae geo…    
ㅠㅠ    
still, naekko just feels more natural to say    
nae geo is like  
*🍑: it's like when you say "you're mine." but “mine” feels more like “you are mine” kind of like a deflated feeling. i think that's the difference*  
i’m sure there are things i don’t know    
but that’s a good sign    
i can just look them up, learn, and move on    
not knowing isn’t embarrassing    
choosing to stay ignorant is, right?\!    
that’s why whenever i write something important,    
i always run it through a grammar checker one last time    
ㅋㅋㅋㅋ    
life’s the same for everyone, right??    
spacing is tricky\~\~    
even when i text people other than y/n,    
whether it’s on kakao or just casual messages,    
even for small things,    
i try to keep my spacing correct    
not because i have to,    
but because it’s just a habit now..    
💌 "익숙해지다" *(get used to it)* is an adjective formed by adding "-어지다" to "익숙하다," so you shouldn’t put a space in between    
i didn't know that\!\!\!\!\!    
just learned something new    
so cute at 2 a.m.    
what, am i not cute at 2 p.m?    
ㅎㅎ    
*🍑: but when i copy and paste the words that wav says and send them, i have to add an emoticon in front of it so it's easier to distinguish them, right? even just now, i was too lazy to do that, and when i sent it without the emoticon, there were many wavs that seemed confusing, right? just now, too, at 2 am, it's cute. the wavs were like, "oh, me," like that, so it's better to add the emoticon, right?*

doesn't adding an emoji make things clearer?    
💌 wav, you fool    
wav pretended to type that    
💌 all the other members add the wave emoji though    
yeah, i know    
i used to do it too    
but at some point,    
i wanted to take a different path    
maybe it was my rebellious phase    
ㅋㅋㅋ    
so i thought about what else to use,    
peach was a candidate    
but monkeys were a no-go,    
because that’s me    
🤢 i actually like this emoji,    
but someone said it looks like a face right before throwing up,    
so i stopped using it    
🤢    
🤮    
and the actual puking emoji is right below it    
🤢 and then immediately    
🤮    
yeah, that confirms it..    
the reason i liked this 🤢   
did you know that wasn’t part of the original iphone emoji set?    
it was added later,    
and back then,    
i was really into my arched-eyebrow impersonation,    
so i thought, "wow, that’s literally me, just with a green face"    
and i was like, 🤢 you’re mine    
ㅋㅋ    
but i draw the line at actual puking    
🥺 people have told me i look like this one a lot    
big, round eyes, arched eyebrows    
there’s a tripleS song lyric i’m obsessed with these days    
it’s not even a recent song    
it’s from *generation*    
drumroll    
it’s the part sung by gong yubin    
"너의 시선 하트 강아지" (*t/n: from attention, your eyes, and heart puppy) *   
it’s originally just "하트" *(heart)* at the end,    
but it sounds like "하트강아지" *(heart puppy)*    
go listen to it again    
and gong yubin’s tone fits it so well..    
when i first heard the demo  
and then saw the final korean lyrics,    
i just knew  
this part was the killing point    
*"나는 네가 좋은 걸 하이\~*    
*너의 관심 시선 하트강아지🫶🏻💕"*   
when i first heard *"decadence"* i was like    
"what does that even mean;;"    
but it sounds cool, so whatever    
💌 you like yubin a lot don't you......ㅠㅠ  
it’s not that, i just really like that part and her voice    
💌 decadence means moral decay    
"윤리적 타락, 이곳으로 날 던져"    
what does that even mean?    
@ceo    
explain yourself    
so am i supposed to like decadence kim yooyeon too now?    
i messaged her earlier,    
and she sent me some weird flirty text,    
so i left her on read    
then she asked if i dropped my phone,    
so now i’m "not leaving her on read" anymore    
then she called me and asked why i wasn’t reading her kakaotalk messages,    
so i just said,    
"i was ignoring you on purpose"    
ㅋㅋㅋㅋ    
oh, and something funny happened today    
hyerin was asking me to help her pick shoes    
so she showed me a bunch,    
and the very first pair was    
so ridiculously…    
elementary school-looking  
they were the kind of childish slippers    
even an actual elementary schooler wouldn’t wear    
bright pink with a bunch of ribbons all over them    
i get that she was going for a kitschy vibe,    
but she couldn’t have been serious    
but then hyerin goes,    
"wha?.. unnie..    
xinyu unnie is literally wearing them right now, look over there.."    
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ so i was like,    
"huh?"    
and when i looked over at xinyu’s feet,    
she was actually wearing the exact same slippers from the photo    
thankfully, she didn’t hear what i said    
but jeong hyerin was this close to saying my full name in real-time  
chaeyeon unnie said unnie’s shoes are elementary schooler ₩&&)@@&₩& something something  
so zhouxin this is cuuuute\~\~\~\!\~\!\~\!\~\!\~\!\~\!\~\!\~\!\!\~\!\~\!\~\!)&₩&@&₩&&&  
alright, alright, my bad    
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ i was just shocked to see you actually wearing them    
💌 mega coffee’s açai bowl is supposed to be good    
i like açai bowls    
i’ll try it sometime    
the açai bowl from maison de greek is my favorite    
so açai bowls are basically smoothie bowls  
made from blended fruit    
like a smoothie but without water?    
though some do have water in them    
but the ones i’ve tried were pure fruit  
why is everyone talking about alcohol all of a sudden  
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ    
is there an alcohol version of açai bowls too?    
oh asahi??    
that’s the name of a drink??    
highball??    
ahhh    
so it’s japanese alcohol    
honestly, back when i mentioned chamisul on a live,    
i got so many questions asking if i was interested in alcohol    
but no, i’m not    
i mean, how would i even know if i haven’t tried much?    
this is making me so frustrated i’m typing faster now    
you guys know me    
i don’t even like coffee    
how could i possibly like alcohol    
ㅠㅠㅠㅠㅠ    
i like water  
my mom always told me to drink a lot of water,    
but it’s harder than i thought    
i’m pretty sensitive to the taste of water    
if it tastes even a little off, i’m out    
i like both cold and warm water,    
but filtered water is kinda hit-or-miss for me    
apparently, the best water temperature is neither too cold nor too hot    
but i guess moderation is key in everything, right?    
excess is never good\!\!\!    
but cold water is good to help wake me up though ㅠㅠ    
whenever i wake up, i wash my hands    
you know how people say to wash your face at school if you’re sleepy?    
in kim chaeyeon’s world, it’s “go wash your hands” instead ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ    
how do i wash them, you ask?    
well, first, i wet them with water    
then, pump some hand soap    
lather up  
shoo shoo shoo shoo shoo    
ah, it’s not that scrubbing hard wakes me up    
it’s just that feeling water on my hands snaps me out of it    
plus, the act of washing itself makes me focus for a bit  
\>\> come to your senses    
pretty simple, right?    
i should sleep by 3 a.m. ㅋㅋㅋㅋ    
but wait, what does drunksen mean?    
sounds like a scientist’s name    
elemental drunksen  
the inventor of the foam roller    
has a ring to it, doesn’t it?    
foam roller developer elemental drunksen    
“wait, elemental is a dressing sauce???”  
oh, come on???????    
it’s a movie\!\!\!\!\!\!\!\!\!\!\!    
it’s fine, it’s fine, ding ding ding ding ding    
come here, let me pat your head    
people always figure out i’m sleepy    
when i start talking nonsense    
lately, i’ve been listening to *actually (penomeco)*  
💌 are you listening to the original or pt. 2?    
i listen to them in order    
and i’ll recommend more good songs soon    
i really like devita    
and she did a feature on this song    
*ballerina*  
it’s kind of an ost?    
it played in a drama at one point    
i remember thinking, “wow, this music is nice”    
so i looked it up and added it to my playlist    
it’s a short song,    
but the music itself is just so good    
i also like looking up movie and drama ost albums    
like the *sky castle* album    
there aren’t many lyric-based songs in it, right?    
just background music from the drama    
but i still listen to it sometimes    
when i do, i really feel like i am yeseo from sky castle    
or kang joon-sang    
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ you know what i mean, right?    
like, i hear a track and think,    
“oh, this is the part where yeseo’s mom shows up\!”    
or    
“this is the teacher’s theme music\!”    
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ    
i can’t imagine a world without music    
also, in *snowfall*, kwon eunbi sunbaenim’s part is so good… 🥺    
no, not the “nuni, wa\! nuni, wa\!” part    
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ    
not the rap    
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ    
i mean the part that goes, “looking out the window, the snow is falling\~”    
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ i actually know a decent amount of rap    
even though i don’t really listen to hip-hop    
i used to watch *show me the money* with my younger sibling    
so there was a time when i knew a lot    
i’m not super familiar with rap,    
but i liked *breathe*  
and i only watched *smtm* season 10    
i liked *breathe*  
and mbti   
my sibling and i used to sing those nonstop    
to the point where just making eye contact meant we had to start singing    
we were so loud our mom actually told us to stop ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ    
i even know how to rap *breathe*  
today, just close your eyes and breathe\~\~   
yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah    
i feel like i expanded half of my sibling’s musical taste    
i was always playing idol songs and pop music around the house    
so now, compared to back then,    
it feels like his music taste has gotten a bit younger ㅋㅋㅋㅋ    
everyone’s trying to make me sleep now    
when usually they’re telling me not to go    
💌 remember two years ago when you stayed on fromm for like six hours?    
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ    
i vaguely remember, but not the exact time    
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ    
people were like,   
"wait, you’re still here?"    
two hours later  
"wait, even now?"    
one hour later  
"chaeyeon, aren’t you going to sleep?"    
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ    
it was like this  
in my memory  
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ  
from attention, your eyes, and heart puppy  
*🍑: from attention, your eyes, and heart puppy*  
*🍑: from attention, your eyes, and dog*  
sing one line of *touch* before sleeping?    
alright…    
*🍑: touch\~*    
good night    
ㅎㅎ thanks for staying up late and talking with me    
since i was here with you at this late hour,    
you’ll have a good dream or sleep well now 😙    
sleep tight, for real    
♥️.♥️ 

*🍑: \*🎤actually pt2 \- penomeco\**  
anyway, actually\~    
it was hard because my voice was so low    
this is to celebrate my voice coming back    
💌 i was so proud i took out my airpods on the subway  
and turned the volume all the way up to share it with the people on line 2    
..please    
thank you for being proud  
💌 i only listened with my mom…    
for me, that was more nerve-wracking    
i can show off in front of strangers easily    
but in front of people i know, i get nervous    
💌 ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ do you know my mom??    
ㅋㅋㅋㅋ well, since she’s y/n’s mom…    
it’s only natural to want to look good and feel nervous    
but behind the scenes…    
i couldn’t do it on the live    
because of the Asmr issue and my stuffy nose    
so i’ll do it now    
i just recorded it    
🍑: \**🎤beyond the beyond \- tripleS\**  
*🍑:  but i don't like the last part of the chorus, the inescapable social part, so i'll do it again.*  
*🍑: doing it again might be good, but it's my part, so \*🎤beyond the beyond \- tripleS\* bye\~*  
*🍑: \*🎤stay \- blackpink\**    
blackpink sunbaenim's stayyyyyyy    
it’s one of my favorite songs    
i’ll stop here    
i’m leaving now    
y/n, still today, as always…    
i… i…    
adore you 💓.💓    
ㅋㅋ and i changed my profile pic ✌🏻    
for real, goodbye, dress warmly, wear your padded jacket