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y/n  
i'm off work  
it's suddenly gotten so cold lately  
maybe because it's snowing  
mmh  
y/n worked hard too  
so, one thing that happened today\!  
i went to the salon  
and while getting my makeup done,  
i was chit-chatting with the makeup artists  
just small talk, you know?  
then one of them mentioned  
that they recently watched a sad drama  
and cried their eyes out  
so they were recommending it to me  
and another makeup artist  
and the two of them were like,  
"omg ㅠㅠ so sad, so touching ㅠㅠ"  
but apparently, i was just sitting there blankly  
actually, i was actually understanding the story in my head  
but then the artist who recommended it was like,  
"chaeyeon doesn't seem that sad...  
chaeyeon, you're a T, huh?\!  
so cold-hearted\~\~"  
🤣  
so i was like,  
"oh no ㅎㅎ it's not that\! i was just processing the story"  
but then they said,  
"chaeyeon, now that i think about it,  
you're kinda cool-headed at work, aren't you?"  
at first, they said i was chic  
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ so i was like, huh..?  
i'm far from chic, and i'm not a T,  
“i actually have a higher F ratio"  
and they were so shocked  
they said i seem like a really rational person  
my mbti is now a secret  
it's changed\~\~ \>\<  
i'm not telling anymore hehe  
everyone, just think whatever you want  
anyway\!  
so i told them,  
"i want to be someone cute  
like mayu-chan in daily life"  
and the ssaems were like,  
"but chaeyeon, you're so cold-headed at work"  
and well, i admit i'm firm and decisive,  
but i never expected the word 'chic' to come up  
that was new  
so i was like, "huh..?\!?\!?  
nooo, i'm just a tiny little bean…"  
and in the end, the ssaems and i came to a conclusion together:  
i cry a lot when i cry  
(of course when i’m alone)  
but i'm also cool-headed and rational  
but also kind and warm  
so, i'm a warm but decisive person  
and you know what?  
i actually like that about myself  
“being cool-headed and rational might just be  
a skill you pick up from years of experience”  
i guess so...  
time and experience can't be ignored  
everything has its value  
so now,  
whenever i get interview questions  
about my personality,  
i'm just gonna say,  
"kim chaeyeon is a warm but decisive person"  
😌 i really like it  
until now, i couldn't find the right words  
to define my personality or vibe  
but now that i have,  
i feel even more grounded  
😌😌😌  
i'll spend my whole life  
researching and discovering myselfff  
y/n, i hope you do great research too  
“even though we're the same age, i really respect how you mature by finding yourself  
even in the smallest things i want to make you my role model”  
wow\~\~\~\~\~\~ am i your role model?  
thank you so much  
you don’t always have to get inspiration  
from big things  
some people live their whole lives  
inspired by small moments  
we're all different\~\~\~\~\~  
“chaeyeon, have you ever thought about writing lyrics?  
i think you'd be really good at it\!\!\!\!”  
lyrics\!\!\!\!\!  
i think about it 365 days a year  
i even wrote lyrics in elementary school  
cafeteria rap lyrics  
writing lyrics…  
it's probably hard, right?  
because it's not just about satisfying myself  
but i do think  
i really like writing  
realizing that i like writing  
was actually kind of hard for me…  
like, "do i even have the right to like it?"  
because i thought  
i needed more study, more knowledge,  
and had to be smarter  
so i hesitated to say  
that i liked it out loud  
but i actually try to write something  
every night before bed  
when i was a teenager,  
i had so many writing apps on my phone  
even some paid ones  
when i was younger,  
i used to write in a diary by hand  
but as time got tighter, i started typing more…  
but still,  
that’s writing too\!  
as long as you write something,  
it stays  
i'm off to shower nowwwww  
let’s talk about writing again next time  
your warm but decisive chaeyeon is leaving now😇❤️  
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