**11:49 PM KST**
whatcha doing, wavvv
i’m sooo tired
and i miss you
“living a life without kim chaeyeon… it’s kinda hard…”
ㅠㅠ 🥹
i missed you so much
that it was hard to bear
so let me show you… me
***video***
just 4 seconds of chaeyeon
but it’s an alive and moving chaeyeon
messy hair🫨🫨🫨🫨🫨
“you’re so pretty i screamed in my taxi and caused an accident”
…?
1\. are you okay?
2\. you didn’t actually scream, right
3\. and there was no actual accident, right..
hold on, just sent a message to my sunbae myung hyungseo unnie
is this… what they call
getting hit by the bias truck”
ah..
why do girls always go too far, you ask?
hm i didn’t go too far though
should i go too far for you?
the devil woman…
but i prefer angels……
hello this is an angel speaking
*🌊: hello, it’s angel here. i took off my wings*
*it didn’t really hurt when i fell from the sky*
*🌊: the goddess of women, the master of women, the queen of women,*
*the final boss of women, the angel of women: kim chaeyeon*
*🍑: you really attached all the best titles to me, huh?*
*🍑: actually, there’s this song i’ve been listening to lately. it’s one i’ve loved since i was in elementary school*
*🍑: it’s gray sunbaenim’s just do it*
*🍑: it’s one of those songs that really motivates me, and i’ve been listening to it again these days*
*🍑: it has that ddu-ddu-ddu-ddu kind of rhythm*
*🍑: like, how do i say it, it’s rhythmic and fun, that kind of vibe*
*🍑: i think songs like that are great to listen to even before going to bed*
*🍑: something like that*
*🍑: the lyrics are really good too. the message is basically: “just do it”*
*🍑: like, just focus on doing your thing. instead of overthinking or worrying too much, just do it*
*🍑: so it kind of snaps me out of things, like a wake-up call*
*🍑: right? it’s a good song, i agree*
*🍑: i think it came out when i was in elementary school, probably?*
*🍑: anyway, i’m a little sleepy now, but playing around with wav is still fun*
well then, just like me please
if i were to recommend one tripleS song
it’d be love child
go listen to it
*🍑: i have three favorite parts from love child*
*🍑: first*
*🍑: “because mom and dad held me”*
*🍑: that part is my favorite.*
*🍑: second,*
*🍑: “i got my tarot reading, i saw the future*
*🍑: you’re finally gonna confess next week*
*🍑: so change it for me in advance*
*🍑: my contact name, to a heart”*
*🍑: i don’t really know the exact lyrics here*
*🍑: but anyway, this part is just super cute.*
*🍑: and third,*
*🍑: my part:*
*🍑: “don’t wander around,*
*🍑: come to me”*
*🍑: i really love this one*
*🍑: it’s not just because it’s my part,*
*🍑: the outro itself is just so good*
*🍑: i’ve told the behind story of this part so many times already,*
*🍑: but when i recorded “don’t wander around, come to me,”*
*🍑: i got so many compliments.*
*🍑: and honestly, talking about compliments i got with my own mouth is a little embarrassing…*
*🍑: but i keep bringing this one up*
*🍑: because it really left an impression on me.*
*🍑: when i was recording part by part,*
*🍑: as soon as i sang, the composer kept saying,*
*🍑: “wow, i’m so happy”*
*🍑: just kept saying how happy they were*
*🍑: and then they said,*
*🍑: “chaeyeon, do you know when a composer is happiest?*
*🍑: when an artist sings the song i made really well”*
*🍑: and that really touched me*
*🍑: normally, you get feedback and just sing based on the directions and finish,*
*🍑: but for that part, i sang multiple takes,*
*🍑: and the composer and i chose the final one together*
*🍑: like, “should we use this one?”*
*🍑: “let’s just punch in this part”*
*🍑: so it felt like i was really involved in the process*
*🍑: of course, i don’t know what was picked in the final edit*
*🍑: but at least in that moment, we chose it together*
*🍑: so that was really nice*
*🍑: and then,*
*🍑: i think my second favorite is*
*🍑: firework diary*
*🍑: it’s really good*
*🍑: but it seems like wav likes that one even more than me*
*🍑: the beginning part where it goes*
*🍑: “mm ah mm mm”*
*🍑: and then*
*🍑: “whoosh shining lights”*
*🍑: do you know how good that is?*
shhhhing
shiningg lights
ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ
you didn’t know that one, right
none of you knew. didn’t know.
doing this again
like uhmm uhm uhm. hmm. not me here
but the very beginning part
“whoosh\~”
“shining lights✨”
right there
*🍑: no but seriously, do you think that "mm ah mm" part was me? i wasn’t even there. starting from “whoosh, shining lights”*
*🍑: that’s my part*
*🍑: but the “mm ah mm mm” part doesn’t even count as a real line, so my actual first part is “shwing, shining lights”*
*🍑: and honestly, after the album came out and i listened to the final version, diablo was the song that surprised me in a good way*
*🍑: because the demo was so good, i was worried whether we could really match that vibe, no matter how well we did.*
*🍑: but when i listened to it after the album release, it felt like, oh? this came out so well*
*🍑: and i get why international fans really love diablo too*
*🍑: my favorite part in diablo is*
*🍑: zhou xin’s “worse than hell”. that line is great,*
*🍑: and also the way dahyun starts it off has a vibe i really like*
*🍑: i also thought the “disqualified as human” lyric was kinda funny*
*🍑: but honestly, the lyrics are really nice*
*🍑: there’s a part in verse 2 that’s mine:*
*🍑: “honestly, i’m a bit shaken”*
*🍑: the lyrics are about feeling shaken, like no matter what they do, you still like them so much that you’re swayed*
*🍑: so when we were recording, the director told me, “sing it like you’re really confused”*
*🍑: i said okay, and for that line, i really tried to sound all over the place*
*🍑: i remember trying hard to express the emotion through crescendo rather than vibrato*
*🍑: and that’s why when we were prepping for assemble25, i was so excited to come back*
*🍑: because i wanted to talk with wave about songs like this*
*🍑: just chatting about the music makes me so happy right now*
*🍑: i hope we get to perform more of our b-sides at the concert*
*🍑: i think you’ll really like it*
*🍑: please look forward to it, wav*
*🍑: also, my rummikub skills have improved*
*🍑: i used to be so bad that i’d have to watch ads to get coins just to play*
*🍑: but now i’m actually good*
*🌊: “your voice is so nice. i’m not in a good mood today,*
*but just hearing your voice makes me want to cry*
*it’s so healing”*
*🍑: first of all, thank you*
*🍑: my voice actually isn’t in great shape today,*
*🍑: and if hearing it makes you feel like crying,*
*🍑: you must’ve had a really rough day*
*🍑: i might not be much help,*
*🍑: but here’s one tip*
*🍑: everyone deals with things differently*
*🍑: some people say “just fall asleep, forget it”. and that can help*
*🍑: sleep really is medicine and helps you feel better physically*
*🍑: but when something really hurts,*
*🍑: even after you wake up, it can linger and replay in your head*
*🍑: if you're feeling overwhelmed right now,*
*🍑: i think writing it down isn’t a bad idea*
*🍑: sometimes putting it into words helps you sort out your emotions*
*🍑: understanding what exactly made you sad or tired matters*
*🍑: because when you realize what it was,*
*🍑: you get clarity like, “ah, so that’s what it was”*
*🍑: some people might say, “what’s the point of understanding if nothing changes?”*
*🍑: and that’s fair. maybe things don’t change*
*🍑: but your mindset does*
*🍑: so i recommend journaling, even just a little*
*🍑: and if you don’t even have the energy to write,*
*🍑: then honestly, just rest*
*🍑: you can always write later*
*🍑: sorry, that got long*
that is my tip
*🍑: no but seriously, how would saying all this make me a T or an F?*
*🍑: though honestly, after starting tripleS, i think my T side has come out a bit more*
*🍑: but i don’t think it really matters that much*
*🍑: yeah*
*🍑: mbti is basically pseudo-science. i always say this*
*🍑: it’s just for fun, something to look at*
*🍑: they say there are only 16 types, right?*
*🍑: but people are all different: in values, thoughts, everything*
*🍑: how could you possibly divide every human into just 16 categories?*
*🍑: so it’s totally fine if people say “chaeyeon seems like an F” or “seems like a T,”*
*🍑: everyone can think what they want*
*🍑: but when people start going “she’s like that because she’s a T,” or*
*🍑: “he’s acting like that because he’s an F,”*
*🍑: that kind of reasoning… it doesn’t really sit right with me*
*🍑: of course, if wav, people i truly love and care for, are hurting*
*🍑: i get upset too*
*🍑: but at some point, even while feeling that sadness,*
*🍑: i started thinking: “because i love them, i want to help them get out of that sadness faster”*
*🍑: and i might not be able to change anything by saying something,*
*🍑: but if my words can help even a little, then isn’t that good enough?*
*🍑: one question at a fansign left an impression on me recently*
*🍑: a wav asked me what kind of thoughts i’ve been having lately*
*🍑: not like an idol-type answer,*
*🍑: but like: what’s kim chaeyeon the person been thinking?*
*🍑: so i didn’t give a proper interview response,*
*🍑: i told them what i actually think about these days*
*🍑: lately, i’ve been trying to figure out what i like,*
*🍑: what makes me feel calm,*
*🍑: what i enjoy, what i don’t like*
*🍑: i think i’m getting to know myself better*
*🍑: in that process, i’ve discovered things about myself that i didn’t know before*
*🍑: even some surprising parts*
*🍑: and i’m really enjoying this phase*
*🍑: i know how meaningful it is*
*🍑: and a lot of older people around me have said,*
*🍑: “your age right now is exactly when that kind of self-discovery happens.”*
*🍑: when i heard that,*
*🍑: i felt this sense of certainty*
*🍑: like, this is natural*
*🍑: finding yourself, making mistakes, learning through that…*
*🍑: and when someone said to me,*
*🍑: “chaeyeon, this is a normal thing*
*🍑: it’s okay to fail sometimes, because you’re learning who you are,”*
*🍑: that gave me a lot of strength*
*🍑: so yeah, i think those are the thoughts i’ve been having these days*
*🍑: and i think this time is necessary*
*🍑: this whole process is necessary*
*🍑: because that’s how you gain confidence in yourself,*
*🍑: and learn how not to be swayed by external things*
*🍑: because if you do get shaken by external things,*
*🍑: that kind of means the world around you is louder than you*
*🍑: and really, your life should be filled with you*
*🍑: when you have a solid sense of self*
*🍑: a firm belief or principle*
*🍑: that’s when, no matter what hardship or challenge comes,*
*🍑: you won’t lose your balance*
*🍑: so yeah, i think i’m right in the middle of that important journey right now*
i want to be someone with inner charm too
i like how i’m sharp and decisive
goodnight wav\~\~
sleepy now zzz